So what's my New Year's Resolution? To never give up on my writing aspirations again.
I'm a girl of little self-esteem and plenty of self-doubt. I'm the type of person who, if I don't get it right, I'll work for hours and hours, but never become satisfied with what I'm doing and, ultimately, throw it away out of frustrations.
So, for awhile, I quit. I gave up wanting to go to college for Creative Writing and took a major instead in Graphic Design. Even in my designs, I have little confidence, but that's another story in itself. I stopped writing poetry like I used to and gave up writing after Libby and I grew apart for a year or two.
This is why I'm happy I have Libby again. We have been writing stories together online since we were eleven. More than half of our lives. But she lives in the southern end of the United States and I in the north, so we've only met four times. So, we're forced to write via instant messenger programs. But, if anything, that only motivates us further and causes us to accomplish more in a day than either of us would by ourselves.
When it comes to my frustrations with stories or art that I'm working on, I have nothing to keep me on track. I don't have that confidence to look at my piece and go "I like this." But with Libby there, she provides that voice. We assure each other when things are going great in our storyline or when things are wrong or lackluster. When we write, it's a perfect environment and we're both comfortable together.
So, for this upcoming new year, I'll have better confidence in my work. I'll work hard to get my and Libby's novel an agent. I'll finish our trilogy and finally be proud of something I made.
Happy New Years
